There is a monster in my head.

Like cancer spreading to the rest of your body, bit by bit this monster is taking over. You don’t feel it until you are depressed, pitiful, shameful, guilty, doubtful, worried and having low self esteem. The monster I’m referring to is just like the monster young children see under their beds, behind their bedroom door and in their closets. Just like these kids they feel the presence of the monster but they can’t see it. How do they know there is a monster? How did they come to that conclusion, that there is something creepy in their rooms? How do they feel something they can’t see? You see the fear of a child in his eyes as he cries with fear and trembling about something that gives him nightmares and makes him wet his bed. The monster could be a fantasy something existing only in his mind but the fear is real and as a parent you can see this fear eating up your child. But fortunately as kids grow up they leave this phase and begin to realize that the monster wasn’t real.  Which is victory, yet the battle only exist in the mind.

But this is not the case with the monster in our heads as the older you get the monster grows with you. This monster I’m referring to is negative thoughts that make us the people we are today. These negative thoughts make us feel less inferior and stupid. I use to have the same monster living in my head, I’d wake up in a very good mood than someone would just make a statement that I would find very offensive and this would hurt me extremely. It would bring back moments when I was growing up when someone offended me or someone made me feel stupid. That is why I said it is like cancer eating the marrow in your bones and you can’t see it but everyday you feel weaker and weaker. But over the year I have learned that everything that happens in my life is a result of how I reacted to it. No one should be sitting in the driver's seat of your life.  You should be the driver so that you can choose the path, speed and the right gear which is compatible to you.  Many people sit on the backseat and complain when driven to places they don't want to go to.  The monster referred above can drive for you.  I would recommend total control of your life, in decisions, thoughts, actions, etc.  Own it it's your life.  We live most of our lives based on what others think of us not realizing that we are unique and each of us has his own identity that makes us who we are.

You are created I the image and in the likeness of your creator, you were created with your unique talents, qualities and skills. No one is like you and no one will ever be, as there is only one of you in this whole world. Be proud of who you are, be proud of your skin colour no matter what anyone says. Remind yourself that you were born in this time for a reason other wise you could have been born in the stone ages. But you were born now for a reason, you exist at the right time, right era and right place though at times it may not feel that way.   You exist tp contribute towards the writing of a history which future generations will read.  The current generation needs you, they need to benefit from your skills and talents. Whenever you feel down and out and you feel as though this whole world is against you just sing a song you love and see the effects of that. Do that which will create new energy from within. That which will create a spark in you, that is something that will revitalise you from within. 

 A song has the ability to vibrate your soul and connect you to the real you, the positive you. Singing has a powerful effect on us and we should use this to our advantage. As you sing this beautiful song visualize something you love, something that makes you smile. I usually imagine my daughter playing with my husband and that just makes me happy. In my vision I can see them laughing and having fun and that is the feeling I hold when I feel like the world is coming down on me.

You need to come to a point in your life where you are your own motivator as there will be times when you will feel alone, but you need to be your own friend in these times. You need to be able to speak to the negative thoughts in your mind and tell them to “BE STILL”. Your thoughts need to know that you are in charge that you are the King/ Queen in your world.  Anything in the world that is taken care of grows and expands, e.g. plants, child, etc.  The mind works in a similar manner. When you feed your mind negative thoughts you are expanding the monster in your head and it will take over. Fill  your mind with positive, good and pleasing things. Fill your life with joy, fun and laughter as these are the energies you release to the world, to you friends, to your family and anyone around you. Life has it’s up’s and downs and let me tell you they are there to help us grow, to mature and sharpen us making us better people. So just look on the bright side of life if it’s a rainy day than create your own sunlight.

"Doing is the evidence of believing that what you doing will yield fruit" - Mothei